My inner healer needs healing!

For whatever reason, I could not do this exercise.  I tried and tried, however, I either ended up in tears or just couldn't concentrate long enough.  I have listened to people tell me over and over that sometimes these exercises just don't work, but this one just left me completely frustrated.  I think I have a lot of built up pain inside, that I've been able to push down and not think about.  Some of these exercises become a bit more personal than I would like for them to, and sometimes I don't even understand why.  More importantly, I'm not sure I'm ready to understand why. 

I don't know how I am going to encourage people to meditate.  I hope to have a future in fitness.  I enjoy working out and encouraging others to make some healthy lifestyle changes.  I believe in prayer.  I also believe in Jesus and would love to help others who don't know him get to know him.  I know meditation works for many people, and I've even had some luck with a couple of the other exercises, however it's hard for me.  I'm not super passionate about it.  I would never discourage it, but I certainly wouldn't try to offer any expertise advise about it.  Despite my negative attitude about it, I do have every intentions of continuing to try the exercises.  I'm hoping that by being able to do it on my own as opposed to feeling forced to doing it, I will have better experiences.